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Hello DeviantART. :wave: My name is Megan as most of you may know this and as most of you may know as well I am a Freelance artist. I do digital work. I do photomanipulations and retouching as my job, not my hobby. I'm also an aspiring alternative model and also a photographer.

As some of you know or may know I posted a poem awhile ago titled "My deviantArt story." which I did put into storage; if you saw that you know some information about me if you did not I am going to probably bore you with my story for a moment. So hang in there with me. Okay? You good? Well...

I am a victim of child abuse. I am a victim of child molestation at the hands of a family member. The abuse was horrific, so bad that I now suffer permanent issues related to the abuse. I suffer severe post traumatic stress disorder, depression, and horrible anxiety relating to public, being in public, certain situations around people due to this abuse. I was on medicine about 3 years ago but could no longer afford them so I stopped taking them. Many of you message me or ask why I am never active like I used to be. I am so very deeply sorry I have distanced myself. I have been slowly slipping back to a depression so bad, some days I fear I may not make it out of the storm. Now this is not a pity post, or a "help me", "baby me", post. It's an I am sorry I abandoned a community who helped me so much through the years; but as of lately I am not okay. I have sank into a bad depression again ever since I moved several hundred miles from my family, ever since a man I called my father (who was my best friend in the entire worlds dad) passing a year ago suddenly and tragically. Everything has just been spiraling down and down and down. I'm scared. I'm scared I'll never be normal. I'm scared I'll never have a normal life. I'm hurt because people my age have jobs, or kids, or loves, and I'm a terrified woman who jumps at her own shadow. Who needs therapy to work through her demons, who needs her family, but is too far and stuck to get home to get the proper help she needs. I'm scared deviantArt. I am human and I am absolutely scared shitless. I have used deviantart for many things. To make friends. For my art. To ask for help when I am down and out. So many amazing people have come to my rescue in the last year. So many people tried effortlessly to make me smile and have succeeded, but it never lasts. I'm miserable in my own life, and part of that is being so far away from what is familiar and the people who had my back. I need that again. I need them in my life. I need proper help again and home is where I know I can have the tools to help me succeed....

So, with this all being said. I need your support. I need your kind words. Your encouragement. I need to be able to see stuff to smile and know that not every person in this world is out to hurt me because I will be honest. I am scared. I've been hurt so much sexually and mentally, that I am a lost puppy. I don't know what to do. I just need more support. More kind words to bring my down days up and keep me dragging my feet. So please, please help me. I am begging you. This is my plea. Help save me...

With your support and kindness I am going to push through this. I am going to make it home. I'm going to go at it like I never have before and I am going to conquer this demon that is destroying my life. There may not be a cure for PTSD. There may never be one, but I will beat this. It may not happen today, tomorrow, this week, this month, next month, this year or even next; but I promise you all I am bigger than this monster lurking in my brain and my body. I will beat it once and for all.

So please send your support via words in the comments, help brighten my day and pay it forwards.


Please help my raise money to get the help I need. If you cannot help by donating, can you please share the fundraiser?
www.giveforward.comwww.giveforward.com/fundraiser…
Sincerely,
Megan Wheeler aka MEGAN-Yrrbby
:blowkiss: :heart:



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:wave: Hey you guys! I'm so stoked. A wonderfully kind stranger, who did not tell me who they were donated $50 to me in the form of an amazon gift card back in July. I haven't used it, but I am going to put it to good use and give it away! Yep, you heard me..give it away. I'm going to hold a contest on me work profile on facebook, with a contest! And YOU CAN JOIN IN THE FUN! Isn't the exciting?! I'm super duper excited for this. I've been dying to do this for months now, and now I finally can.

First and foremost if anyone has anything they would like to donate to the contest and it's winners I would be forever grateful to your kind deeds and I am sure the winners would be more than stoked also, so if you would like to donate your time or a gift please contact me on here or my facebook account so I can add your name and your facebook page to my list of givers for the contest.

You can enter by going HERE and liking the page and the status! Nothing else, just that. I do hope you share my page with your friends or pass the status around via your Facebook as it is my 2014 referral contest and I need as much community help to grow it!

THANK YOU SO MUCH AND HAVE FUN!!
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:wave: I've been contemplating this for months now, and I have finally bit the bullet and done it. First I am going to explain what, and why and then I will share a link for you all to check out and I hope you all will just take a moment to read this all.

WHAT

For years I have wanted to dive into Photography and not just photograph still images. I've wanted to photograph people, come up with wonderfully brilliant nature themed shots with gorgeous people, children, animals, ect involved; but being a freelance artist I struggle daily money wise. I struggle also because of anxiety with my PTSD. But I have had it. Enough is enough. Photography is my life. It's my one true happiness. My one true passion. My only love. So I started a donation page in hopes to raise money to get the much needed items to build my own company.

WHY

It's simple: It makes me happy and I want to be someone and go places in my life.

Thank you
With that said, if you could even donate just a dollar to help me get money to start my company I would be forever grateful for the kind deed you have done for me and I will never know how to repay anyone back, but I will..through growing in my life and my experience with photography.

Donate Here: gofundme.com/fi1408
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Recently I found out about a new site called Ello. Needless to say my curiosity and need to expand as well as get my name out there more has made me sign up! If anyone has an ello leave a comment below or if you want an ello leave your email and I can invite you! Ello is a social media art platform and I am in love with it. It's a way to help spread my work around, connect me with others who have eager creative minds like my own, and expand my options for more sites to share work with.
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I have noticed over the past year, I'm getting less and less interaction within my page unless the images I post are selfies or portraits of people. That saddens me. I used to love being on deviantART but as of lately it seems like it's a huge popularity contest and that upsets me. I just used to love having my work be seen and have fans and people who enjoyed looking at my work, and now that RARELY happens. It's sad to me. I miss the following of amazing supportive artists I once had. Half the people I used to follow at one point, don't even have accounts anymore or just have dropped off the face of the earth. Even more and more now..I contemplate quitting deviantART and the day I decide I will, will break my heart. This site has helped me with my depression, my problems; it was my creative outlet when no one else in my life would listen and even now that seems to be slowly dwindling down daily. :sigh:
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I am running out of options. If it's not one thing it's something else. When am I ever going to catch a solid break? I'm tired and I am fed up. If it's not constantly feeling miserable in my head, if it's not for work being nonexistent and being unable to even live on my own, it's my laptop starting to crap the flipping bed. I really just need one break in my life. Is that honestly so much to ask for?

I'm admitting it. I am a freelance artist. I am trying to start my own business and be self sufficient. I am broke. I suffer from PTSD and due to that I have trouble being around anyone I do not know. I am scared of being in large groups, I am scared of everything that is not my comfort zone due to PTSD, and it's miserable. The one thing I was trying to do, is failing because my laptop is starting to die on me and I am too broke to upgrade to a new one which I badly need to continue running my business.

So I'm sorry for another one of this pathetic journals, but I have no where else to turn for help.
This is the laptop I am looking at getting if I can raise enough money to buy it ASAP
www.amazon.com/HP-TouchSmart-S…

Any help would be appreciated and when I get on my feet, I am as always going to pay it forward to someone else who needs help.
So if anyone could lend a hand I would appreciate it so much. i have $50 in amazon money right now but that is it.


  • Mood: Sadness
Holy cow. I feel so loved by all my new followers on here. You guys are amazing! :blowkiss:

So as many people know, everyone has long term goals, and short term goals. I was sitting down and thinking about my goals I want to fulfill in 2014 and I have so many of them, but I'm going to list them all anyway! Why? Because I know if I try hard I can do it.

Short Term Goals
1. Get into shape and get down to my goal weight of 150 pounds!
2. Change my eating habits for the better (not as much crap in my life!)
3. Save up money to buy my best friend a tablet.
4. Save up to get my friends mom a laptop.
5. Add onto my tattoo for my birthday present in April! (26 years old baby!)

Long Term Goals
1. Pursue modeling as a job
2. Expand my retouching services and digital art services
3. Get Published
4. Get another lens for my camera :star:
5. Make enough money to be able to pay all my own bills.

That being said. I am a digital artist and photoshop wizard! If anyone needs anything retouched or manipulated please get a hold of me. I am looking to get more work and build my client list up! So I'm looking for any work and commissions too!
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Death Toll by MEGAN-YrrbbyEntangled by MEGAN-YrrbbyEnchanted by MEGAN-YrrbbyThe Last Song She Played by MEGAN-YrrbbyButterfly Kisses by MEGAN-Yrrbby

I began my deviantART journey over 7 years ago. I stumbled across this site when I was looking for a creative outlet. I started out as an ammeter photographer, and manipulator then grew into a professional manipulator and retoucher growing from my deviantART time. deviantART has helped me cope with severe depression and anxiety and has been my light when most days where nothing but dark. I've worked hard to get as far as I have and I have deviantART to thank as the site and people who I have stumbled across are like my family and support group for everything I deal with. I'm happy to be part of this inspiring community.
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Good afternoon loves, :blowkiss:

As many of you know I am a freelance artist and we don't make much money. I don't make enough money right now to support myself, but my business is SLOWLY starting to grow. If any of you have been following my Facebook or Twitter, you may know that my friend has surgery tomorrow to replace her hip! I am trying to raise money so I can buy a box spring, and a bed frame so our bed we have to share due to our current living situation is no longer on the floor as she won't be able to get up and down from the floor very well for months after she has her surgery and it's not healthy for anyone to have a bed on the floor. I will be having a few ebay auctions of some of my art work, but I am also accepting any donations. Thanks to the help of some amazing people here on deviantART I have raised $20. I'm looking to raise at least $200 for a decent box spring and frame set, and possible if I get a little extra a mattress that isn't really old like the one we have now!

All donations can be sent to the paypal of rukia_1134@yahoo.com
Ebay: www.ebay.com/usr/meganleeretou…

There will be rewards for donations over $25.00
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Got some photos I would like to sell; or I can do a commission for "themed" photos.
Got bills to pay and work in my industry is slow right now due to it being summer time!
If anyone is interested, just PM me and I will happily answer any questions you may have.
Thanks everyone! <3

Also will be selling a few things on ebay!

www.ebay.com/usr/meganleeretou…

If you have any ideas on other things I could sell, shoot me a message.
<3
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If you have been a follower of me for ages, you will have noticed I mostly have done digital work. Well, that's on hold for a bit. Between doing it constantly for work, I don't feel like doing it for fun. I'm more interested in photography, learning how to model and pose, and also take more photographs. So please bare with my while I find myself in my creative art world.

Yes, I know I've been posting a lot of selfies and if you don't like that you can unwatch me. After my 40lb weight loss I feel amazing about myself and my body and I am showing it off. I'm expressing myself while learning poses for modeling as when I hit a lower weight I would love to purse it.

I'm also in the process of making photo bundles to help pay bills. :)
If you are interested let me know; I will be also doing requests.

For more information shoot me a message! Thanks you guys.
:blowkiss:

To the user who gave me an amazon gift card for a commission; thank you so much! You are a sweetheart.
  • Mood: Love
I have been asked about commissions from time to time and never decided to fully committee to it. Well now I am. As many of you may know, I am a professional retoucher now, I don't use deviantART much because I am so busy, but I am looking to raise more money. My friend will be having surgery to replace her entire hip on August 5th and I won't be able to do as much work, so I am trying to raise money to cover bills for the 8 weeks where I can't do as much work!

www.facebook.com/MeganLeeRetou…
www.modelmayhem.com/megannlee

HOW IT IS GOING TO WORK

10 Images retouched for $30 ($3 an image instead of the normal $5 I charge)
20 Images retouched for $55 ($3 an image instead of the normal $5 and 1 free image added)
1 Manipulation for $12 (normal is around $20 when all said and done)

All payments will be made to my paypal email: rukia_1134@yahoo.com

I also have some photographers that are not on deviantART for sale.
If you are interested in purchasing the image please contact me on here via notes.

Donations for bills and household items are also welcome.

Thank you everyone! I hope to do some commissions for real this time. I'm hoping this gets more hits than every time I tried it before!
 
To the user who gave me an amazon gift card for a commission; thank you so much! You are a sweetheart. :blowkiss:
  • Mood: Love
Hey everyone! I donated my points recently, and am need at least 50 to purchase stock that is commercial free usage for work. Does anyone have any extra points they could spare?
  • Mood: Sadness
I decided that I miss deviantART a lot and I cannot leave. I did put most of my deviations into storage and left a few out. I'm going to start to expand my work into photography and just random stuff. I think just posting digital work is getting boring and I want to expand and grow what I post. So I hope you all stick with me and keep helping me out as I still have so many goals deviantART wise and I don't ever want to quit. I want to get them and make them all come true.
  • Mood: Sadness
I have no words in me when it comes to deviantART. It's helped bring me how far I have gotten in my I am grateful for all the places and opportunities art wise it has given me, and I couldn't be where I am without it. For now, though. For personal reasons. I cannot be on deviantART. I want nothing to do with it, at all. I find myself checking it daily and every time I do, I am just reminded of all the bad crap. It'll never be the same. It will never be what it used to be to me and therefore I am walking away. I don't know for how long, or if it's permanent, but for now I am not coming back.

www.facebook.com/MeganLeeRetou…
  • Mood: Sadness

Quitting deviantART for awhile...

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 12, 2014, 6:03 PM


After some thought..I have decided I am walking away from deviantART for a little bit. I don't find the point when due to a few issues there is nothing but drama towards me on here now and I'm not going to be dragged into someones down fall all because of it. I refuse to let it effect my work and my life and I just need to distance myself from this site for the time being. If anyone who follows me would still like to keep in contact and follow the work I do, please follow me on facebook to keep in touch. Thanks for everything you guys. www.facebook.com/MeganLeeRetou…


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WINNER
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Ohmygosh! It's that time again:icondorkydanceplz:
I'm going to be giving away 273 points to one lucky person.
All you have to do is add this journal entry to your favorites.
I will choose the winner next Friday!

RULES
Just add this journal to your favorites.
No watches are required.
No other weird complicated stuff.
Winner will be chosen with random.org

JUST FOR FUN
Not required by any means; but I would appreciate it.
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H A P P Y - V A  L E N T I N E ' S - D A Y
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Alright, so I have been a bit flaky again, but I am back! :) I am looking for donations for my points pool.  Anyone who donates gets a watch, llama and a permanent mention in my journal. Anyone who donates 100+ points get all that and a few more spots on my profile. I'm asking for donations for contests, so if anyone wants to help, I would appreciate it!

Alright I am in need of money, so I am doing comissions. How it will work is you can send me an image to retouch or manipulate and pay via paypal. You can use it whereever you want and you do not need to give credit if I do work on your image. There isn't any "slots" anyone and everyone can participate. So I am hoping this works, as I said I need money and figured this would be a creative thing to try seeing as many other people have done it and done it successfully. I don't see why I can't.

PS: If anyone can, I am looking to get a premium account. If anyone donates one, I will give you a feature and shout out! <3

2 0 1 4 - G O A L S

:bulletpink: Post daily
:bulletblue: Gain more friends and clients
:bulletpink: Make an image that I think is DD worthy
:bulletblue: Inspire and help other artists








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I'm writing a book! (News Feature!) + CONTEST

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 6, 2013, 5:39 AM


I am looking for horror and macabre / Halloween themed images for a massive news feature I will be making in dedication to Halloween and as my official return to deviantART! So if you have anything that fits for the news feature please note me! OR if you know someone's images, please note me! I am eager to make this a large news feature of new, varied, old, unnoticed, noticed artists alike! So lets do this! :)

So after many tragic events this summer and through-out my life I have finally started to write a book. It is something I have wanted to do since I was old enough to know what an Author and a Novel was. I'm excited to say, that I will be sharing my preface on dA, because through it all I have noticed I got tons of support from people who I have never met and to me that just makes my days 10x brighter. So thank you. Thank you also for everyone who wished me and my second family condolences on the passing of my second father. It means so much to me. That out pouring of love is almost enough to make me cry with happiness. I want to thank everyone for being here to support me through my dreams and my wishes. Thank you dA for turning me into the bright, young, bubbly, outgoing artist I am today! :love:



C O N T E S T - T I M E !

:wave: Alright, so I have come up with a contest for October, 2013! 
I am trying to promote my page Megan Lee it's my facebook portfolio & work page!
I am in need of promoters! So that calls for anyone and everyone
.
Here is how it works: I need as many people spreading the word about my page, have your friends like it and if they do have them private message me on that Facebook letting me know your deviantART account!
The person with the most friends/family/people to help me promote my business gets a postcard print of their choice that I'm going to personally sign for you! The second and third place winners will each get 50 points from me (if I have extra I'll reward a 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, & 10th place prize of points as well!)

Contest Winners will be announced November 8th!




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My dad passed away.......

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 4, 2013, 6:21 AM


So after I posted this, the doctors had come out and spoke with the family.
We all decided it was in his best interest, to pull him off life support and let him go peacefully.

Robert, my second father, passed away a few days ago.
 I haven't been on much because of his funeral and other things that have been going on stemming from his death.
Thank you everyone who has sent prayers and was wishing for him to get better.
I appreciate it as does the entire family. We thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

There is some expenses for his funeral that his burial policy couldn't cover.
If anyone could make donations to help us pay it off, it would be appreciated.
All donations can be made here: www.gofundme.com/41r88k

I'm willing to do a custom art piece for anyone who donates.
Just note me & I will ask what you want and go from there.
If you don't want to donate to the link above, donations can also be made out to rukia_1134@yahoo.com (paypal)

I'm also asking to get this passed around, so more people see it. Thank you so much.








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